Do you ever get the feeling of wanting attention 24/7? Whether it be from friends, family or a boy/girl you like. They’re all different, slightly similar in some ways.

Attention from friends is when you want to feel accepted within the crowd and let them define you as “the shy one”, “the smart one”, “the dumb-ass”, “the slut”, “the funny one”, and many more that everyday come new to this world. You see, in society we all seek acceptance, a place where we fit in. have you find yours? It doesn’t necessarily have to be in a large group of people, the less the better, that way you can show who you truly are. I found where I belong, where I feel comfortable to speak my mind and I wont be judged, our group consists of three people; me, her and him. We didn’t have to do anything to be accepted because we accept ourselves when we’re together. In other groups I’ve observed that there’s always “the douchebag”, the one that must make anyone feel like shit so that he/she feels complete; “the really –pretty- yet- really- slutty –girl- everyone –wants- to- fuck- but- no- one -does –because- she’s- to- slutty” *sigh* YES! She’s the girl that blinds every guy, making it impossible for them to notice “the pathetic –not- so -pretty –only- have -sex -with -boyfriend” kind of girl. I would really like to have a men’s perspective of these groups. Someday, soon… anyways I hope someone gets what I’m typing about.

Now let’s talk about acceptance in the Family and how we get that attention, what we do. First, we DO NOT want to be treated as teenagers so, what do we do? (I don’t know what you guys do, but)… I get a job!!! I pay my own bills, I study, I don’t do everything an adult does, but I certainly am on the way. So, why are we treated as young teenagers? We haven’t seen it all, but what are we going to see when our parents don’t let us. its crazy the how your parents don’t know anything about you, how they don’t trust our way of being. Therefore we try to be accepted in our family.

*sigh* boys… and girls… there’s always one that fucks you over, one that gets away, one that you know would make a perfect couple and you’d be happy together but he/she doesn’t  notice. I’ve always thought about soul mates, do they really exist? I thought I found my soul mate, he was my best friend, I would have done anything to be with him; he let our relationship sink, he tried In the beginning but we both got tired of trying and love died. Then came this high school old crush, I knew it wasn’t going to be serious. Before I go on, I must admit, I am a very insecure person, I don’t want to be alone, I like being in a relationship, I like having that special someone. I say I’m no hopeless romantic, I lie a lot to myself. Anyways, high school crush, we went out a couple of times until a big moment for me arrived: we kissed. A kiss I wanted since junior high. Sounds stupid, just a kiss, but it wasn’t the kiss, it was the person doing the kissing, how he treated me before that, everything was perfect. Few days later I didn’t know much about him and I get desperate, very desperate. And I call, and call, and call, and try to see him, reason: INSECURE PERSON! And I guess I just spooked him away. Sometimes I think I’m psycho, but I can control it, then again I’m still a psycho. Not good. I think we’d be perfect for each other that we’ve only been with the wrong people that have made us suffer and now is the time to try. I feel crazy typing all this. SOUL MATES… bleh. I wish there existed such a thing. Are soul mates opposites of people? I’ll look that up. I just want to be happy and make someone happy.

 -Anonymous…

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